Kayin Fritz

You've become one of my good friends.

Its sad that our time here is going to end.

I love that you're so laid back.

Yeah, I know this for a fact.

Remember I'm always in town,

So don't let anyone put you down.

Your special in your own way.

So never change not even for a day.

I love that I can talk to you about anything.

An for you any song I'll sing.

 I love your eyes and that smile.

It's perfect suit, because I think your really cute.

You'll always be in my heart.

An to me your a work of art.

Never forget me, as I won't you.

Love to be loved

Sitting alone in the dark.

Its like the trees at night, with its broken pieces of bark.

Its almost like getting your heart ripped out fro underneath you.

Yet, you have nothing left inside to put on a rough show.

Fire and water are worst enemies.

Which isn't a good mix.

It can't be right and isn't a great fix.

 Oh, how you would wish what could have been.

I mean were all filled with wicked sin.

We can't change the past.

It seems everything was like a road that went to fast.

The way we had that look for each-other.

Loved to beloved.

Looking for her

Its hard when you fall for someone. That makes your heart run. You know you get tired of getting your heartbroken. An there's completely no words to be unspoken. An your always trying to find a door that opens. You try to do your best and you can't even take a days rest. Love is confusing, yet really amusing. When your with that person its like a song. An its like nothings even wrong. So when you take her hand, that's when you'll speak the turth. There will be no judgement in her eyes. An thats so hard to find. Because the way she's going to make you feel like your finally something real. Even if it takes so much inches, you would run miles. I don't know who, but keep looking for her.

When I watch you

When I watch you

So sweet like a precious baby

Yummy, poured in the scent

Of lavender an a hint of caramel

or

When I watch you

In your ordinary fly kicks

With the matching color and pattern

Keeping, a very close eye on me

Like a mother bird to her babies

I say

When I watch you

You sweet honest to God of a man

Who use to be all trouble and no good in

The past years

"I love you!"

For your change of heart

"I love you!"

My Own

It was quite a hike up that mountain.

With no water fountain to be seen.

Oh, just let us all be.

That cool breeze coming across your face.

Many of us weren't the same race.

Mountains of great plains.

Somehow were lucky it didn't rain.

The rough and hard rocky ground.

With so much of any small sound.

Boulders of rocks sticking out at each corner and end.

All of us leaning over with some bend.

The quiet and silent music of the dead weeds.

Looking far out into the big blue sea.

The quiet whispers of the winds.

Us going fishing for some fins.

Trails from every direction going left and right.

Some of us going up that hill really can put on a fight.

Gray clouds a bit of fog going downwards.

Everything around us is beautiful there's no unspoken words.

OMJ!!!

So well I haven't been on here in a long time and I don't know I think I've just been so busy with things that I'm tired. You know of everything oh well I'm not sure what to expect but I feel like I need to do better then this. I just feel not as I was before.

Its a new start for me

I know everybody does their whole new years resolution every beginning of the year on the first of every January because its what we as human beings always do. Its like a tradition you know. As for me well I believe that every time school is about to beginning that's when my new years happens. I mean I have never been so sure of myself because this year is going to be different. Its MY SENIOR year and I'm going to make the best of it because unlike the other three years of my high school life and so forth I want to get the heck out of this cold icy place. I think its going to be a year to remember and you know something I just feel like we should do something everyday that we would never do I mean isn't it a challenge for you. I might not be a superstar but I'm shining like there's nothing stopping me from winning GOLD! I have many dreams and goals in my life but for right now I'm just thinking of graduating the top of my class and with my friends that I started my freshmen year with and to get into a good college. Till further more I'ma go and yeah!

Always,

Veronica F.

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

Journal Entry 13:

Hey world, So his morning I found out that I can't go to Florida because my mom said I can't. I mean this sucks! Oh and the money I made yeah my papa is going to keep it which pissed me off because I love him but I worked for that money. An did I tell you that guy that I like is so handsome. I can't get him out of mind. Although, yesterday when I got home my little niece was playing with my hot pink nail polish and she wasted it all because it all came out and was all over my shoes. I was so mad after that because it just made me furious but I love her and shes just two years old. I mean what can you do. Well, till next time!

Always,

Veronica F.

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

Journal Entry 12:

Hey WORLD, well I am fundraising money these last weeks of June because I'm going on a trip to Orlando, Florida. I'm trying to get around $800 something so I can pay for my fair and I just hope I can go. It would mean the world to me, so I put up two Ads. One is for a Bake sale and the other is for My business of me willing to do anything for you any chores of things you can get done or don't have time to do any more. Although, it will be a lot of work but I am willing to do for the money I am trying to earn to go on my trip! So wish me good like and hopefully I can be typing one of my entries from Florida. Till tomorrow!!!

Always,

Veronica F.

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

Journal Entry 11:

Hey, so today has been going good so far. I don't know if its just me, but I feel like all the other Polynesian kids here at East high are very judge mental because today I chose to wear my red lipstick. I mean I look good in this color because it matches my skin color you know. I think I just need to calm down a little. Oh my goodness did I mention that my other half came back yesterday which would be my cousin Tina. An I'm so happy that its Friday so I can try to get a job for my senior year and hopefully pay for my own things instead of me asking my mom or older siblings. I'm eating so Mamba right now which is a type of candy if your wondering. Although, I'm still trying to pass my online class which is earth science I know its just a science elective okay. I took it so that I know I'll get credit for it. So that's all for today till next time.

Always,

Veronica F.

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

Journal Entry 10:

Gosh! I need to keep up with my blog.
(LOL) I know my voice my not be important but right now I'm in summer school for the third time in a row. I mean it's for good reason because I'm taking the last three classes I need to graduate. Although I'm scared a little you know because whats going to happen after I graduate will I go to college? I'm not sure I mean my dream college has been UCLA! An I want to go off after I graduate high school but I don't know if I can leave my mom, what will happen with her and who's going to help her with my brothers? I just worry sometimes. Oh well, I gotta go till next time!

Always,

Veronica F.

Nothing but Human!!

Sometimes I feel like the whole world is just spinning around and around.

I think that kids these days don't even understand what the meaning of friend ship is. Yesterday I felt

so hurt when I was trying to get my guy friend to sign my petition because I'm running for student body Vice President and I was so upset because he denied me and said "your samoan you'll never get any where." It hurt my feelings so much I mean he use to be so nice when I first met him he was never like that and then I just went to my last period for the day. Which meaninglessly I have the same class as him. WOW! what a true friend right.. I just need some time to think.
always,
Veronica F.

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

Journal Entry 9:

I can't believe it i mean MURPHY said YES! I'm so happy I'm going to the dance with him. I feel like sometimes its to good to be true. Like this whole school I felt like I was crazy because I haven't been going to sleep til about 2 or 3 in the morning you know. I just have a feeling that he might stand me up and I'm going to look totally stupid which would be really upsetting. Today at school my friend Anna asked the guy she likes Nathen to the dance and he made her get on her knees and said yes in front of everybody. Then a few minutes later he when pull her to the side and said NO! Like what the HELL is wrong with guys like make up your freaking mind. Girls take a chance and then guys like Nathen should just get nothing good. But what ever that is not my problem although I feel so sorry : ( well til next time.

always,

Veronica F. 

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

Journal Entry 8:

OMJ! i like you so much but you don't even know... WOW! today has been a terrible day like so far, I had a bad start because I woke up with a headache and then I had to go and get ready for school. Although I had a great start by talking to my mom when she was dropping me off. I then got mad because during 1st hour I got hit in the face with a volleyball. also I had to work and coffee shop was not the business it just made me mad because some people are such joy kills... well until next time.
always,
Veronica F. 

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

Journal entry 6:
I'm so confused right now I've been having trouble focusing on school work and other stuff in my life. Its crazy how everything seems so weird you know. I'm in my student government class waiting to get things  done and just trying to get things back on track. Well thats all I have for today. Till this afternoon.
Always,
Veronica f.

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

journal entry 5:

This computer is so dumb I had a full paragraph of things I wrote and they were all erased. I don't even remember what I was writing about. Sometimes I get so mad but anyways I love colten dixon I hope he makes it on american idol a big fan I am. Yesterday I went to the hospital with my mom and it was crazy it made me realize how much I would miss her if anything was to happen. I love her so much and don't know what I would do if she wasn't by my side. Our generation my not see how are parents have worked hard so that us kids could live the life they didn't live. An I'm glad that my mom is my mom because she raised me well and I will always thank her for that raising me and my brothers and sister.

always,

Veronica f.



A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

journal entry 4:

I'm sitting here with nothing to do because I'm like done with all my homework. I feel like nothing is really the same you know. I was just browsing the internet for future colleges and there was so much. I've always had UCLA at the top of my list for the college I've wanted to go to. I remember when I use to be 6 and I wanted to grow up so bad and now being 16 my life seems like it just flashed before my eyes. I can't believe all of this is happening and I can only be sure that I like be where ever my mom is. 

always,

Veronica f.

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

journal entry 3:
I feel so bad I mean I got into it with my brother today it was so annoying. We both never fight I mean our relationship is like a love hate thing. I don't I'm so confused lately its been a while since I've written on my blog so I'm going to be fully committed to this because this whole day has been a drag. I didn't even go to school today because I woke up late and just decided not to go. Is it such a bad thing I mean I want to get into a good college and make my mom proud of me. I just don't like things being handed to me. I like to earn it by myself because having someone else give it to me feels like am getting the easy way. I feel like moving away from this cold place. I want a new scenery so I can just chill for a while. I need to get myself a boyfriend. I'm so dumb at times I just caught up in stuff that don't really matter. well until later!
always,
Veronica f.

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

Journal entry 2:

So this week has gone by really fast I think.

Its been really nice going back to school and but still it really isn't the same without my best friend Tina. I miss her so much its crazy I mean I see her everyday but without her at school its different.

Also my mom isn't back and its just been me and my other siblings. I see now how some kids go without there parents and how it could be really hard. I'm like the biggest moms girl in the world because I can't last a day without seeing her and since shes over there in Samoa I'm like going insane just missing her. I'm the type of girl who gets home sick very fast and like I could only be good for an hour and then I want to go back home and know it may seem dumb but I just operated that way. So till tomorrow.

Always
Veronica f.

A LIFE NOT TO DIE FOR

journal entry 1:

                                 So it's been a good start to 2012 so far. It's amazing how my little cousin Ina is writing her own book. I wish I could finish mine but I don't know what the world would say. Will they like it or not I'm not really sure if its even possible for me to even feel this way. So right now I'm going to start these daily journal entries so I hope you guys read. I just feel like this day has been so crazy and good-bye 2011. So until next time.

 always,

Veronica f.